i sure hope no one's reading this anymore. anyone out there?

sigh hah. that sigh.. this is so. melodramatic. but im not even trying here. oh sue me. it's not working is it? i just wish there was someone about. but i guess it's my fault, as usual. and thing is, i wouldnt even say that i dont love myself. im proud of me, i dont suffer fools gladly either. it's a kind of defiance, really. i dont know whether to say i rather not be me, but there's just so much, so much..

you know what? im totally confused too. i dont want to think about anything already. i just want to be with you whoever you are.