i saw her and her these two days and i realised - actually, i've always realised, just that it slapped me in the face again - that, dammit, im a loser.

hey damien
you're a loser.

im not all that keen on being happy if that means im going to remain damien. i dont like damien. I DONT LIKE DAMIEN.

..did anyone try too hard? well i guess i did. and yet not trying is just so..

wth is wrong with me.